I somehow feel the part of me that was me
has died and disappeared...
what is left is only a shell pretending to be
me, doing what i normally do,
performing and going through
my regular routines.
I only like to engage in self pity and rot
at home everyday.
this is shit man.seriously.
I have seriously lost the incentive to blog.
haha. so this blog has been dying for ages.
I feel miserable but i cant say why here.
oh crap.
gahh~
was talking to someone i knew quite a while ago.
like in sec 2.
ages since i talked to him.
went to chat in facebook.
realised the guy totally forgotten my existence.
haha.
im just thinking...
how easy is it to forget a person totally.
like clean forgotten.
even if pictures are shown,
names are recited.
I used to think its impossible to totally
forget a person u have had close contact with.
Or a person who has had a certain
impact on ur life.
Unless to that fren my existence was just that
not important.hmmmm...
Even with my dory-like memory,
totally short-termed and absent minded,
I still could rmbr my good frens from the past.
I know i have forgotten lots of ppl,
forgotten names,
forgotten birthdays,
but at least for most ppl I rmbred their existance.
Im not scolding or blaming anybody here.
I just realise how easy it is to forget a person.
Maybe 5 years down the road i would have
forgotten all my primary sch frens.
Or maybe 15 years down im no longer in
contact with any of my JC frens.
This has taught me sth.
I need to learn to treasure my frens more.
(:
so that years down the road I dont have to
go thru that
"oh.who-and-who has forgotten about me"
routine ever again for any of my good frens.
(Unless we all 80 and old and wrinkled that is...)
